tell me that you care.. more than anyone else

haiz, feeling rather not good today.. or rather, like shit.
imagine being attacked the whole day, quarreling with teppan chef, feeling like nothing... and etc. also, because it's working time.. all you can do is to endure, bear with all those shitty feelings... telling yourself, "its ok. it'll be over soon.."

later, last straw-words that came out from andy.
although he's rly a bstard today... his words hurt, but i rly cant do anything but agree. I AM DAMN SPEECHLESS AT THAT POINT OF TIME.

den later, laopa said sth that make me feel like... even he noticed it... I AM SPEECHLESS ONCE AGAIN. but i've that strong urge to actually cry.
because of the quarrel with andy and wadever that happened.. and laopa is always the one i can rly... cry/laugh anytime.

"elaine being speechless is never a gd sign..."
and yes, it's not at all.

after work is better.
the supper did me good. but now.. i'm exploding.


i tried to control alot. i'm evening controlling my tone, trying not to shoot at ppl but reason.
sry if my tone is not right... because, tolerating, enduring and having alot of patience is never my kind of thing..


there's so much in my mind right now, i cant say them all yet.
thankyou eliza&wallace, jac for being there today-tonight. :)


ok, i'm slping.
lessons at 8 tmr. S&W.